Grrrrr

Life makes less sense with each passing year.  It's getting harder and harder to want to keep going through the cycle of work-to-pay-bills-to-survive in the hopes of MAYBE someday actually being free before death.

I worked so hard to get the education that has gotten me a really good job, but, as usual, circumstances (involving other people being unwilling to work as hard as I did) prevent me from enjoying my accomplishments.  I guess it's my own fault.....why should they have to work as hard when they already reap the rewards?

When did not being able to provide, at least for oneself, stop being shameful?  What happened to having pride and honor in building one's own life?  When did it stop being rude to expect others to accommodate your needs...acceptable to expect someone else to come and "make it all better"?  Do people not understand the word "impose"?

LIFE IS NOT ABOUT GETTING WHAT YOU WANT WHEN YOU WANT EXACTLY HOW YOU WANT IT!!! 

IT'S NOT SUPPOSED TO BE EASY!!!!